jade in the parke

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Grateful

Grateful.
Gratefulness is in bed with thankfulness.
They go hand in hand on the boardwalk on a hot summer night licking ice cream and craving boardwalk fries.
Thankfulness flows when my heart is being showed grace in abundance.
Gratefulness is the outpouring of my heart to the One who has bestowed His mercy and grace to me a gossip and a selfish mommy-servant.
Gratefulness flows out of my heart to the ones who have bestowed kindness to me and especially my needy little special family.

In just one hour this week at a 7:30 in the morning this past Wednesday, I saw my diabetic daughter's blood sugar climb higher and higher, then vomiting. The swirling fears of DKA (ketoacidosis) flow through my mind, as I am madly searching my emails and cell phone list for a sub for my kickboxing class that I teach in two hours. Time is ticking and I hear my other daughter with Arthrogryposis downstairs sitting in her wheelchair unable to stand until someone helps her. I can't leave my nine year old as I am fumbling with the shrink wrap on her translucent pink pump inserter trying to redo my botched pump insertion from last night. Emails come in on my iphone from managers asking me to call for a sub, my youngest asks 10 times if she can have a banana and I want to curse, but I say, "Just eat it, I don't have time for this".  I ask this sweet six year old to help her 15 year old sister. Then, I stumble in to the bathroom seeing D getting sick one the floor one foot away from the toilet and I wish I could say I just let her, but I didn't. I moved that poor girl to the right spot. While texting other instructors, I give D her bolus of insulin through the pump and set my clock to check again in 15 minutes. My six year old running to grab the uniform for her big sister and then off to make her a lunch. I text my husband. I am going to get fired. I don't know what to do...He steps out of meeting to drive home.

Blood glucose tested, down 30 points as insulin is finally getting absorbed and she is on the mend. My six year old has opened up our van, deployed the wheelchair ramp and has helped her sister into her power chair. Thirty minutes late to school, a quick conversation with another supervisor extending grace and mercy as the class is cancelled, crisis averted with Type 1 Diabetes and I hear my six year old dragging 8 bags of trash to the curb. Thankful for the Lord's protection and grateful for humbling me before my servant hearted child. I am beyond blessed.


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(Clockwise from top) Me, A, E, D


Thank you for listening in on a moment of time that thankfully is not a usual moment anymore. And, yes, I am grateful that chaos is not a part of our dailies.
I am writing with Five Minute Friday at LisaJoBaker.com with the writing prompt of "Grateful". 
So no editing: Changing the weak metaphors, cleaning up the unflattering view of myself, just 5 minutes  (plus a couple extra to finish the story...shhh).  
Please note that this awesome view greeted me that very morning at my daughter's tutorial on behalf of Senior prank day. 
Pink flamingos in contrast to my morning. Just made me laugh. 

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"Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus" 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

12 comments:

  1. Oh, my. What a story you tell. I can't even imagine what you face each day. My prayer for you tonight is that the Lord grants you extra measures of strength, grace and even humor. These little ones are blessed to have you as their mamma!

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    1. Thank you, Marie! I appreciate your prayers. But we are so much better! Goodness, I am so glad that this is not an everyday occurence any more.

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  2. Hi Lita, visiting from FmF. I'm grateful just reading your story this morning. I feel ashamed that I'm not more grateful and appreciative for the life I have. Thank you for the reminder that no matter what, life is good. You girls are beautiful and that 6 year old - she sounds a little like a niece. Marching forth and conquering the world - all before lunch.
    Give them a hug.
    Ciao from Rome, Italy.
    Patricia
    http://mojitoandme.com

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    1. Hi Patricia! Thank you so much for commenting! Please no shame or pity for us. There is so much joy, happiness and grumpiness when necessary. God is good.
      I will be in Rome in a month with my son for a school trip. I will blog about it, so I would love it if you could subscribe to my blog and leave comments!
      My little girl? She is a special, spunky and strong!

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  3. Labelling this post 'keeping it real' really blessed me. There's no sugar-coating (unintended pun!) this kind of reality of life... but in our desperation we cry to God, we see grace and mercy come, and we are grateful. I'm grateful too, that your story ended with you all safely delivered. Ruth

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    1. Amen! Authentic living in the light of the freedom that I don't have it all together!

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  4. Those precious faces! Before I could even leave a comment, I had to pray for you all. May God keep your children & bring them health that is stable. May He give you the strength to take care of them & meet their needs. Grateful that He is all we need in our time of need. Happy Mother's Day! Grateful to have stopped here from FMF this morning :)

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    1. Thank you, thank you, thank you for praying. Prayer warriors are welcome to subscribe to my blog anytime, anywhere. :)

      I am so thankful that this slice of one and half hours of our life is not like how it used to be even just last year.

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  5. Oh girl, I am so grateful for you that you write that life "is not like how it used to be even just last year." Having navigated the perilous cliffs of blood sugar ups and downs and other adventures (yup, that's my sarcasm there), I know how crazy they can be. I can hardly imagine having to take that adventure with my child. Brave, wonderful, mama heart that you are. Thank you for being so transparent and real in your sharing. These are the things He uses to shape us, aren't they. Have a blessed weekend ahead!

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  6. Wow! I'm so glad that's not your normal--but it sounds as if you definitely have your hands full. May God continue to bless you with the patience and stamina that you need to be a mommy and a caregiver. Dropping by from FMF to cheer you on!

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  7. Thank you, Rebekah & Anita for your encouraging comments.
    Rebekah, I am sorry you had to battle the D beast, too. He has equipped us, but some days are hard for all of us and we want to cry, "Uncle".
    It has taken all of my will power not to edit out the ugly, rough edges. Thanks again for visiting from FMF.
    Hope to see you at Allume?

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  8. That is just the utmost incredible start to a day I have ever heard! Well...read. You have an incredible family. The photo of your girls is just charming, but reading how they all did what needed to be done in midst of that storm. Wow! God is so good and so gracious. Thank you for sharing this wonderful post! Just visiting today from FMF.

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